random thoughts

i just have to say that i really like this blog so much better than the original blog i started on AOL because i love having the fact that i can save and share favorite video finds that i find out while browsing thru youtube... wish there was a way to take all the info from previous aol blogs and backdate it on here but alas i know im not smart enough for that one... my friend just told me the other day that the way those tributes were all made was by using Power Point... which i was stupid and said that i didnt need it added on my Dell because whatever would i need that for... and every since then i still have to kick myself because i do not have it... oh well what can you do... just wanted to mention that my regular... original website that is an aol site... the addy is... http://hometown.aol.com/constancestone/ is going thru another overhaul... just changing things up because change is supposed to be good for you... after the death of Anna my world has been kinda in chaos... if you remember it began last summer when i had to go to another project at work without much of a choice, was scared to death of the test... but i actually passed the test, but that nite the real test began when i came home and there was a message on machine to let me know that my best friend had passed away in San Diego... the next morning my car wouldnt start... so transportation issues irrupted causing me to loose my bus virginity... but it wasnt as bad as i thought... also my roommate upstairs was giving me rides to work, but then he had a stroke... so his son came out, brought out his truck and motorcycle, and said that i could use the truck to get back and forth to work... he was like my Godsend... Thank you Tommy... then he decided that he wanted to get a 2006 truck, and was going to trade in the truck and they were only going to give him 3000 for it... and he said for that much he would rather me have it than the dealership... so with some assistance, money was gotten together... and i was now the proud owner of a 2002 truck...low mileage... i did very well for myself... and then as fate would have it... it was going to hurl another twist of fate at me as news came around soon after that the owner of the house that i had resided in for over four year sent out letters letting us know that we had 60 days to move out because the house had been sold and they were bulldozing it down and turning it into a parking lot... well that day my dear friend Chris offered me a place to live... so it made it a little less traumatic... so i moved in with him... we lived in a huge one bedroom apartment, we each had our own bed in there... then it came to moving time... there were a few little problems that arose during this time but in the end we got into a new apt in the same complex... its a one bedroom with den... we moved in on March 8th... One month after my hero Anna Nicole Smith had passed away... i think thru her death it allowed me to get alot of tears out that needed to come out that were blocked inside because i was trying to remain strong thru all that bullshit and there is only so much one person can take... and look at everything Anna had went thru in her life... and she kept smiling thru the pain... at least now she is in a better place... sending you and Daniel and my dear friend Seth a hello and love up there and know that your all in a much better place up there... its like you always said Anna... Shit Happens and then you live... that so sucks but its usually the truth... anyho... for awhile the website was going to be a vivid baby blue with sunflowers photoshopped to be a yellow green... and the theme was going to be "All the pain that love can bring" with reference being to the fact of how much it hurts to loose someone that you truly love was the spin that i was thinking on it... but... as more time went on... i decided to go with another theme... thru hell and back with hope... so the hell was basically everything that i went thru since last summer... and i feel like im back now in a new place with a new start and there is HOPE that I might make a return to the spotlight... and if i would ever hear anything about the part that i auditioned for, the role of the Cincinnati Whore , which is a role in a horror film... and maybe a return to the stage... but if i come back to the stage... i want to have something to say... a platform... or could just being a BLONDE BOMBSHELL be enough of a platform to stand on? just wondering and glad you could make it thru this ending to this randomless thought brought to you today by none other than your own web mistress...
love ya...